Writer or Not….You Were Not Made to be Invisible

I blogged for years.  Anonymous. No name.  No blog tied to my Facebook.

Just words, bubbling forth. Deep from the soul.  Uncoated.  Untamed.  Fearless. Real.

And now, there is a name, Jen Avellaneda.  The name I’d always hidden from.  Run from. Unowned, because I never wanted to be seen or known….by anyone…

Let alone the millions on the world wide web.

And yet, it was when a close friend found me. When little by little, people close to me began opening up these words scratched fast from the core of my being…

I hide from my writer’s mind.  Put up a shield, started to dumb down my thoughts, and quickly turned to be what others expected of me…

Instead of being me.

Can you relate?  Please tell me, “yes”…the urge to please, to be all that you have been asked to be tugs at your heart too sometimes. 

And yet, as I molded, formed, softened, and curled up in the home of what others said I, “should be”…I lost my voice.  The power to tap into my feelings, pour out in words this authenticity inside me…

Being real in a way that heals the wounded soul.

For a writer mind is different, not like the rest of the world.  Where others separate thinking and feeling…a writer’s mind is like a ball of colored thread all intertwined….thoughts, feelings, ideas, passions, intellectualisms….

And the more we hide, the more we keep that tape of doubt over the mouths of our voices…the more we start to die…little by little…one thought at a time.

See, writing deciphers thoughts and reality, hope and concern, faith and insecurities.  Writing is more than our words, but our eyes that see who we are.  It’s the step we move forward from, one word at a time….

And there are those that say, “do”, “be”, “go”….but a writer knows, we must see with the vision the Lord has given us first. Then, through those words, we can move forward…

And, aren’t we all just tired of empty religion, noisy chatter, scattered business….words typed for fame, without any heart or passion behind them?

And don’t we all want faith.  Faith that not only says…but does.  Faith that moves forward….faith that truly loves?

And I have hidden that kind of faith, lately.  Bold faith.  In your face, fearlessly un-doubting faith. 
Faith that doesn’t apologize or hold back.  Faith that changes lives…

Because in this world we live in we will have trouble….but true faith, the action calling others forth from a true writer, will always change the world…

And I have learned in my quiet complacency…doubt has no sons or daughters.  Only gravestones to point at and take pictures of…

But, we are of a generation that doesn’t want to stand, staring at immoveable objects.  We won’t settle for people blabbing about “how to”, “when to” take real action…

We are a people that doesn’t hold back because we fear “man” sitting at the other end of the screen criticizing.  We don’t cower, withdraw, or question who we are because other people can see us.

Yes, we see….and we know…love has the power to change the world.

So, what is your voice today?  How has God called you to stand up, get out, and impact the world with the love of Jesus?

Have you been like me?  Apologizing?  Silencing your voice because you question your identity, or fear other people?

And though the enemy wants to keep you, closed up, locked up, trembling in fear, making you feel inadequate….

God has called you to rise!  Rise and serve those He loves.  Rise to be the wife, or mother, or friend others need in the world today.  He has called all of us to live fearlessly declaring His name….

Because it’s true, despite what others tell you….His people were each, given a new name.  A name and a face, and a place to live free as children of a God without shame…

What is your name today friend?  How can you use your place in this world to share His great and glorious name?

For regardless of what calamities strike the world, the doubt, or fear you might be feeling…one thing is guaranteed…. 

You were never made to be invisible.