In The Arms of My Lord, on Humbled Knees

Aging knees give no regard to hard wood floors. Blowing away dust of yesterday left to unfold…..

Nestling into that place where whispers waver and the voice of thunder shouts out His name.

And it is here. In this place…..that I finally let go.

Here.  Alone.

Where questions and reason float from my soul…..

Making their way to The Heavenly Throne.  So His blood can cover all lies with truth.

And instead of feeling small. Lost. Somehow all alone.  I feel surrounded by His warmth.  The tangible presence of a Savior protecting me.

And I hear.  Music of Loved One…..Calling me.

Into further worship.  Into that place where Heaven’s pour down.  Where no tears of yesterday can be found.

Erasing a lifetime of trying to redeem on my own.

And the shadows all scatter.

The sound of His glory shatters all faulty wishes and hope and dreams….that ever had weight….and lived apart from Him.

And He alone is all that matters.  Here. Alone. Just Him.

This place.  His voice. Where healing consumes and His breathe dissolves the world around….

And I am o.k.

Despite the pain……Despite the heartache…..Despite this charade that has been going on for years now…..

I am o.k.  Here.  Near His throne.  Where His peace outweighs this earthly home.

And I cease.

Yes, I finally cease from striving.  Here. Open arms. On knees.  Up toward heaven….

Seeking to reach Him.  Desperate to pull Him down.  My Jacob soul…..wrestles for blessings now…..

Wrestles to be known…..in this fallen world…..by The One who made me.  My Creator.

And with groans and moans and pleading cries…my heart is humbled.  This place where mercy pours out from His throne.

And it is as if…….I can see Him. Reach Him.  Though trapped in flesh in this plastic wrapped world…..

I can touch Him.  Running so eagerly into the arms of The One who loved me enough to die for my freedom…..

And I keep Him…..close to my heart…..long after going about my worldly obligation.

That piece of heaven.  There.  Apart from here. Where all of life seems to come into perspective.

And my worries though big become unevident, to God……….in light of the cross……

And faith rise grows strong…..

Leaning on The One always found….

on humbled knees.