Man’s Greatest Struggle with God?

I struggle to figure Him out today.

I want to come…with gifts…of wheat, or meat, or grain…or something.

But He requires nothing. 

I want to share with Him, show Him all I am.

But His demands of me?

Only emptiness.

I want to parade my talents, my strengths, my wisdom.

But nothing I offer Him suffices.

Only me for Him.

Only His strengths, His gifts, His wisdom.

I am His when emptied.  A vessel. Poured out in love…from Him.

Why can’t I, instead of surrender, humble self, die to self…bring offerings?

…It would be easier.


Why can’t I, instead of lose my life….plead & cry, try as I might, earn His praise instead?  

…It would be safer.

How can it be?  Me…simply me…find love?  Emptied.  Hollow. Just the way I am.

Man’s greatest struggle with God? We can’t earn grace.

We don’t have to try.  Do.  Be.  Attain anything.  It is bought. Paid for.

Done.  On the cross.

His loss…our gain.

Example?

Love saved the murderer beside Christ, yet he didn’t do a thing.

No works. No church. No prayer. No righteousness…of his own.

Just a sinner.  Dying. Confessing.  Repenting….Needing Christ alone.

Christ alone.  That is the answer. Christ alone, my resting post.

For when I fight only to be better….I must remember…I can’t.   

I must only surrender.

Only die….Then I live. Seek Him.  His character….within.

Poor.  Contrite.  Meek in spirit. Common with suffering. Despised by many.

Love to all.

Christ, my Savior.  Today.  This moment. This hour.

Again, surrender all….