He sits upstairs. Strumming. Quietly. Bellowing through this mom space. Notes filling….all that’s been lost. This last year. Without him. And why is it. Letting go is easy in words or theory? But, when left. Alone. Without son. Or spouse. Or home. Or any last resort. Letting go is the hardest thing to do? And wondering […]
I stand in the center of a map of the world. Call2All Conference in L.A. And I hear a voice. Familiar. Deep. Coming from behind. The piece of me I have so longed to see….. And there you are. Tan. Tall. Shining bright before all. And you look different: Older. Wiser. Brighter…….with the light of Jesus. […]
Hours. Leaving. Far away from…..the world I once put on a pedestal. And I see… God has been preparing me…. For this season. This day. Long ago. Begging…“Lord, let me be……used by you.” And with weeping. Pleading. Thinking all hope of being used….. Had already passed. Here I am. Waiting. To fly……to China. Holding out…..barren hands….like […]
One week. I am leaving…. To China. As I hear of…. Children sleeping… On plywood. No pillows. Handicapped children…. Without limbs. Cleft lips. Disabled. Babies…lying on the floor. Never picked up. Bottles strapped to their head by cloth. And I know I can’t step foot inside this orphanage… Without the grace of God. Because without Him… […]